four years ago today was one of the hardest days of my life. “there is no heartbeat. I’m sorry.” devastation… Read more Reagan, always my first
Category: grief
nursing is a sweet blessing
I’ve always wanted to be a mom. ever since I can remember. when we found out we were pregnant the… Read more nursing is a sweet blessing
Happy birthday to my Tahlia!
i don’t feel like i have to keep my grief in order to be close to or remember Tahlia (or… Read more Happy birthday to my Tahlia!
Dear Reagan, my sweet firstborn, you would be (about) 2 today. I know it’s just a due date, but it’s… Read more
a monkey, a butterfly and a chili pepper
halloween is not my favorite “holiday”, but i do enjoy dressing up and having a little fun with other friends. … Read more a monkey, a butterfly and a chili pepper
longing for final redemption
i think about writing a lot, but you know, my time is consumed with baby snuggles that i’ve been missing… Read more longing for final redemption
two years of tears
it’s one of those uncontrollable moments. no matter how unprepared you are, it doesn’t prevent it from happening. I don’t… Read more two years of tears
tension
there is this tension of being so upset that in God’s sovereignty that He has allowed such a traumatic tragedy… Read more tension
spiritual warfare
it’s scary. it’s hard. it stings. it hurts. death. when your thoughts don’t match your emotions on this topic, it’s… Read more spiritual warfare
not in vain
i feel defeated. i feel like i have PTSD i feel like this has all been in vain. i… Read more not in vain